an update

thank you for your e-mails and comments! it's good to know so many of you are thinking of us.


they took him off the dormicum this morning, but somehow he managed to pull out the tube of the oxygen machine that was down his throat, although he is in restraints. it seems as though he has used his feet to do it. which is... just like him. stubborn as a mule. the bad news is, now they might need to put him back to sleep again because he's not breathing right yet.


i guess we can't complain though. he's almost survived the critical first 48 hours. he showed signs of recognition when we saw him this morning and his kidneys and heart are doing what they're supposed to do.


as for me, i'm not doing great. i had a contraction the night it all happened - i didn't want to mention it but i guess now i did. i'm okay of course and i guess it's nothing dramatic. but it was a bit of a scare. now i just feel like my head is going to explode.


and i have to make a decision about flying to the states within the next 12 hours. my mom says i should go, maarten says i should go, and me? i don't know. the thing is, i can't really reschedule because soon i can't fly anymore. and it'll be at least a year before i get another chance. and lord knows i need to RELAX. and where better to relax than in california?
on the other hand, my stepdad just crawled through the eye of the needle, he is in the hospital and i just want to be able to visit him every day and speak encouraging words and help him to get better. and i need to hand in an assignment that i didn't finish yet because of everything that has been going on since sunday. and i'm just so, so tired - part of me just wants to stay here, i guess.